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Trauma
Walking around dazed and confused
No longer able to think about individual traumamatic events that have occured
A hurricane incoming, hitting me all at once
Knocking me down, into a spiral of no end
Flash backs, vivid memories begin
Heart and mind race, adreneline kicks in
It's literly as if I'm in the moments all over again
Wanting to cry, wanting to scream, wanting to fight, wanting to leave
Wanting to face every abuser because today, today I'm stronger Motherfucker!
Flight or fight responses
Reliving moments and thinking of every way each one should have ended
But then I was scared
Now I'm only angry
My thoughts obsessive, compulsive
This is trauma related OCD
Trying to process and understand
Though alone I struggle
Just make it end!
No longer able to think about individual traumamatic events that have occured
A hurricane incoming, hitting me all at once
Knocking me down, into a spiral of no end
Flash backs, vivid memories begin
Heart and mind race, adreneline kicks in
It's literly as if I'm in the moments all over again
Wanting to cry, wanting to scream, wanting to fight, wanting to leave
Wanting to face every abuser because today, today I'm stronger Motherfucker!
Flight or fight responses
Reliving moments and thinking of every way each one should have ended
But then I was scared
Now I'm only angry
My thoughts obsessive, compulsive
This is trauma related OCD
Trying to process and understand
Though alone I struggle
Just make it end!
Published 17th Apr 2024
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17th Apr 2024 9:43pm
This is a familiar place. Triggers & flashbacks & rage. It's a tough road to walk. But you've made it to anger, you can do it
17th Apr 2024 10:00pm
Rage. SO MUCH RAGE with each trigger that seems to come out of no where and take forever to pass.
What comes after anger? I'm skeptical to ask but am anyways.
What comes after anger? I'm skeptical to ask but am anyways.
18th Apr 2024 1:07am
I can only speak to my own experience. Took years of PTSD therapy & working my way through diffusing triggers. And I still struggle with them, but not as frequently or horribly as I used to. Just keep working through it. I went through grief after anger...at all the years lost. It cycles & I get angry sometimes still. But keep going, it helps. Every battle affords more peace & freedom of mind.
18th Apr 2024 3:18am
I do notice each wave seems to some how help process a bit more each time, and does help, there is just so much abuse to work through, it all tangles together in blurr during the moments. It feels like I'll never get through each one individually because of that.
I will and do continue to try, I'll get there eventually.
Thanks for your time and the kind reply 🥰
I will and do continue to try, I'll get there eventually.
Thanks for your time and the kind reply 🥰
9th May 2024 6:01pm
I admire your determination to conquer your trauma response.
Excellent poem and excellent self-awareness, poetess.
Excellent poem and excellent self-awareness, poetess.
14th May 2024 1:16pm
28th Jul 2024 4:30am
Trama of any kind id hard to deal with. The way you express what you are going through is makes me appreciate the strength people have to get through the day. Fia xoxo
