Not Me

I sit here thinking,
What's happened to me,
I keep on cutting,
And making myself bleed.

This isn't who I am,
Yet I can't quit,
The devil is inside me,
And is making me his bitch.

I try to fight it,
But he's too strong now,
I want to end this
nightmare,
But I don't know how.

I grab the knife,
And it's about to end,
Then I get to thinking,
If I do this the devil
will win.

I get up and fall,
Down on my knees,
I ask god for help,
Because this is not me.