Old Friend

Old Friend 
You've been hiding 
Disappearing for a time
I didn't miss you! 

Conscious of you lurking
For as long as I remember 
Visiting unannounced 
No invitation required 

Injecting dispare 
Whispering negativity 
Inspiring hostility
Fuelling fear

Today you called
Knocked on my door
Requested access
An old friend you reassured 

Denying you entry
Rejecting your deception
But comfort I was seeking 
And you fit the bill.

Your presents equals chaos 
Hurt and dispare 
Although you're comfortable 
All facates of you I'm aware 

You blind me to happiness 
Confuse my mind 
Shroud me in darkness 
Steal my joy 

It's time to stop knocking 
I'm trying a new approach 
You prevent forward motion
In your presents hope is lost