x: Ssshhh :x

Ouch.
I have done it again.
Yes, I've forgotten who I am.
I'm a fragile girl aged with misery
A broken heart, dying to be set free
There is relief, I find it when I bleed.
It's a secret so Ssshhh
I have to act on my emotions
Once an addict always an addict
It has my soul
And theres no going back now.
Is this real?
Or is what I think true?
All I can wish is that
I could trade this life for something new.