Not Now

NO,
NO NO NO!
NOT NOW!

I-I was doing so good.
I was loving.
I was being loved!
Why must this feeling of longing return?

The yearning for someone,
Someone I can't have.
Someone I don't WANT!

It needs to go away.
I'm finally happy.
I will NOT let this, want, ruin it.
I need it to go away.

I need everything to go away.
Everyone.
Then I can't hurt people.

I can't hurt with my feelings if there’s no one to hurt.
I want to be rid of everything.
Fuck everything,
And everyone.