The Walking Dead

I should have died  
the moment I saw my future without you  
for all intent and purpose I am dead to the world  
through all the arid years of my life  
I found you  
but it was not enough  
love is never enough to carry the weight of angry tears  
and I found myself crippled and blind  
if you live with a disability  
it becomes part of you  
you begin to think of being broken as whole  
until the day the mirror reflects the bandages of you mind  
you claw at the gauze glued to festering sores  
ripping at the dressing,  
pieces of you stuck, clinging to the tape  
throwing away the memories  
then panicking in the trash to save just one smile  
while on your knees you start weeping  
knowing what you lost can never be found again