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I want to let my pain go but can't
want to break down and cry
boys aren't taught how to deal with emotions
I just wish I could get all my friends back
I've been lost in this reality of loneliness
how can this be with a world full of people?
maybe I could write a beautiful lie
pretend I'm more happy than I am
too bad I can't get filth out the brain
nothing but revenge and dirty sex
guess I should turn to God
even though I do believe he is there
I'm unsure if he can save me
perhaps my problems aren't that bad
and I'm sure that is the case
but I don't want to take anymore medication
I already have enough on my plate
I know I'm not as young as I used to be
but I need to get in shape
starting over after a train wreck is so difficult
this wouldn't be as hard if I'd seek out therapy
if only I wasn't so cheap and full of pride
plus something about paying someone
like why can't I just vent?
probably because people get scared off
you're a mess and no fun
guess I can get that
honestly a part of me wants to pick up drinking
anything to kill my overactive thoughts
but as I said I'm too cheap
and that would just be another failure to the list
want to break down and cry
boys aren't taught how to deal with emotions
I just wish I could get all my friends back
I've been lost in this reality of loneliness
how can this be with a world full of people?
maybe I could write a beautiful lie
pretend I'm more happy than I am
too bad I can't get filth out the brain
nothing but revenge and dirty sex
guess I should turn to God
even though I do believe he is there
I'm unsure if he can save me
perhaps my problems aren't that bad
and I'm sure that is the case
but I don't want to take anymore medication
I already have enough on my plate
I know I'm not as young as I used to be
but I need to get in shape
starting over after a train wreck is so difficult
this wouldn't be as hard if I'd seek out therapy
if only I wasn't so cheap and full of pride
plus something about paying someone
like why can't I just vent?
probably because people get scared off
you're a mess and no fun
guess I can get that
honestly a part of me wants to pick up drinking
anything to kill my overactive thoughts
but as I said I'm too cheap
and that would just be another failure to the list
Published 10th Jul 2023
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17th Jul 2023 12:26pm
Advice taken and successfully implemented, getting to where you want to go.
Meet the men at a martial arts dojo, lifting gym, survivalist/prepper club, local gun club, shooting range. Eat beef, eggs, butter, milk, ditch seed oils. Dump the porn, meet a real girl (that doesn't dress or act like she does porn or needs instagram for self-esteem). Follow Raw Egg Nationalist @babygravy9 on Twitter and read Man's World Magazine.
Best of luck to you.
Meet the men at a martial arts dojo, lifting gym, survivalist/prepper club, local gun club, shooting range. Eat beef, eggs, butter, milk, ditch seed oils. Dump the porn, meet a real girl (that doesn't dress or act like she does porn or needs instagram for self-esteem). Follow Raw Egg Nationalist @babygravy9 on Twitter and read Man's World Magazine.
Best of luck to you.
