A Fear Greater Than All (Find Me)

My words die, my body trembles,
My heart is cursed.
My words are nothing, meaningless..
The ravings of a mad girl,
People would say, if
Anyone ever chanced to read them.
The things that happened
In another life,
Stands out sharp and clear like
A picture, and yet the things that
Happened only recently seem
To be fading in my troubled mind..
Fading, blurred and confused,
Like water clouded with ink.
I must remember. I must rouse
Myself to fight. I must find you.
Yet.. Is it best for
Me to hide here, like a
Wounded animal waiting for the end?
No that will not be the way - my
Fate is not to know death.
There will be no end to my pain
And degradation. No end.
Life without end.
Darkness without end, enslaved.
Yet even now I feel my masters hovering,
Ready to suck me into their black world
Of demons and shadows...
I'm so afraid. I, who thought I was
Destined to know and conquer everything
Am even afraid now.
I have one fear greater than all the rest-
That you were never there at all-
The raving of a mad girl..
Oh, I am not strong enough to even
Think that you are only in a
Dream life, and you're a dream love.
If you are more than a dream,
Please come to me, as quick as
A bird flying home.
I love you..
Come back -Find me- please,
Come back....