Be better soon

As I lie here, staring out the window
 memories of us are flowing through my mind,
remembering how it used to be and how it is now
holding back as a tears are just about to fall
Telling myself I'll be stronger tomorrow
We will be ok but I kno that's just a lie
if you could see and feel what I feel
 things would be different
 instead it's constant sorrow and loneliness
Now I feel like I should run before it's to late
But my feet are mentally frozen I cannot move
it feels as if it's something about to break
crying, and waiting to see what life brings,
but I do not dare to look at what I think might be coming
for the days are getting longer and more quiet
Us just being together but in reality we are far apart
Telling myself I'll be happier soon things will be better soon I hope
wondering what went wrong,
thinking why did he say those hurtful things
Even though he doesn't really mean it
I'd rather just cry and break my heart
and ask myself why this happened to me again.
Then Telling myself it'll soon get better you'll see