Sometimes I wonder

sometimes I wonder
how being loved
feels like

other times I wonder
how loving someone
feels likes

these two things
seems elusive to me
like something I'm chasing
and I'll never meet

I sit and wonder
how perfect I'll love someone
care for them
take care of their needs

and I imagine how they'll
love me back
with tender and affectionate
loving gestures

I'm very certain it's not too
much to ask for
ask for a girl
ask for a lady

that'll be by my side
share my vision
as I share hers

hold hands till dawn
like squeaky teenagers

but I continue to wonder
when any of this will happen
or if it'll ever happen