deepundergroundpoetry.com
Almost Hopeless
Most days I just want to die
I just want to freaking lay down and never wake up.Today is no different.
The preacher says,"dont lose hope"
I say hope was lost the day i dropped the 400 dollar poodle my mom had just bought on her head.
I was only 8, i came home from school and was excited for the new pup, i scooped her up in one arm playing a balancing act as my mom reached out to get the mail from my other hand, needless to say i dropped princess on the hard floor, her landing on her head. That was the first time my mom called me stupid, that was the first time i felt this urge to die. I hated me too...I dont think I ever recovered.
I just want to freaking lay down and never wake up.Today is no different.
The preacher says,"dont lose hope"
I say hope was lost the day i dropped the 400 dollar poodle my mom had just bought on her head.
I was only 8, i came home from school and was excited for the new pup, i scooped her up in one arm playing a balancing act as my mom reached out to get the mail from my other hand, needless to say i dropped princess on the hard floor, her landing on her head. That was the first time my mom called me stupid, that was the first time i felt this urge to die. I hated me too...I dont think I ever recovered.
Published 17th May 2023
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
likes 1
reading list entries 0
comments 2
reads 192
Commenting Preference:
The author encourages honest critique.
17th May 2023 3:04pm
17th May 2023 7:58pm
Yeah, it was a tough time all around, my parents had just separated, and I wasn't sure about anything anyways lol. Thank you for the read and kind words.
