paresthesia

Ignoring my feelings until they go away
My hands feel hollow
I haven’t talked in three days
Can’t sleep without headphones
Don’t want to feel anything
They keep asking what’s wrong with me
I don’t know how to say
I want to feel the blood run out of my veins

I need to meet someone new
I keep walking around the woods
Hoping to run into you

Take me out of the old days
So I remember how I’m supposed to think
Someone needs to fix my brain
My mom’s getting tired
Of being worried everyday
Come here and tell me how I’m supposed to change

I can’t stomach anything
Nauseous and dizzy
I know I shouldn’t like feeling empty
But it’s the only thing I have
In my life that makes me feel bad
I can guess my weight
Leave me alone to overthink
I need to starve until I faint

Can’t tell if the pressure’s in my chest or my head
This is as good as it’s going to get
Nothing ever changes but my mindset
I can’t keep enjoying the pain
I know it isn’t healthy to let my teeth
Keep scraping my brain