Agony of being me...

There's no agony like being the strong one
Carrying the weight of the world on your own
Especially while you still young
Being a parent to a house
Forced to take the little and turn it into someone else home

There's no agony like being the wise one
Seeing the world burn and nothing can be done
Screaming caution in silence with no sound
Drowning in the sea in your lungs

There's no agony like not fitting in
Given two choices, to die by this world
Or take your own life
Or die from the things they say that you have to hold inside.
Tell yourself you'll grow it out
Only to look back and realize, nothing has changed but the years that are passing by.
Every day it's a war
For being human, but just the wrong one.

Build yourself a fire  
Rekindle it until you just watch burn out
But deep inside you just so damn tired
Of trying to justify who you are.

There's no agony like being the chosen one
Can't afford to make mistakes, can't afford to fail
Because of those who come behind.
So many expectations
So many battles you fighting
Family and the society you live in.

Constantly reminded of how they thought you'd make it
With so many blessings, talents and gifts
How didn't you make it.
It's no longer your life you living
It's no longer your dreams you chasing
No longer your fight you fighting
Just fighting to please everyone else.

There's no agony like being me