snapshots of a night out

1. I miss the feeling of anticipation  
sitting, fidgeting at the train station  
waiting for the night to begin  
 
It's been too long  
that I've felt this alive
just waiting for something to happen
 
2. Your arms make me feel  
like I'm 22 again  
when I was love starved
and begging for body warmth
and touch  
 
But I'm not 22 anymore  
and love starved
and your arms are a safety net
in a place that has a history
of being anything but safe  
 
3. You know you're in the city
when you open a toilet door
that says VACANT
and walk in to people shooting up  
 
4. I got for called a "white cunt"
outside this venue once  
when I wouldn't give  
a homeless woman a cigarette
 
Tonight the band  
called us all cunts
while inside venue
it was said with much more affection
 
5. I watch a girl struggling
with her outfit  
and hand her a spare hair tie  
to tie up her shirt  
 
She says a quick thank you  
with a smile and disappears
into the crowd  
 
6. There's something beautiful
about how respectful metal heads are
at a concert  
 
Though I did have one guy  
rub up against me as he pushed  
his way through the crowd
rubbing his jeaned cock  
over everyone in pelvic distance  
 
7. I love seeing what everyone is wearing  
and 1000 punk rockers in one place  
is definitely something to celebrate
 
You thought it was kinda lame  
everyone was dressed up as teenagers  
but took the shirt I bought
so you could briefly fit in  
with everyone else  
 
8. I couldn't remember the last time  
I'd seen you smile  
but now I've got a snap shot  
in my mind  
watching you rock out  
to nostalgic songs from a bygone era  
 
I think your smile was the best thing  
about tonight