why

i saw you again today  
and i wanted to scream  
wanted to scratch my eyes out  
so i don’t have to witness  
you’re not looking at me,  
you’re still ignoring me.  
i smelled your scent again today  
laying in bed with your hoodie on  
i want to scream  
break my nose  
so i don’t have to witness  
you’re not here with me.  
 
i‘m done with sadness -  
i am furious,  
i am angry,  
i am hurt,  
i am disappointed.  
 
why the fuck did you break your promises  
the ones you swore you’d never break  
why the fuck don’t you talk to me?  
why?  
why?  
why?  
 
i want to scream at you,  
break down.  
a sign  
so you would notice  
how bad it hurts.