Aphantasia

You told me once that the  
Space behind your eyes,
 Like mine, is blank.  
 
That the only thing your mind  
Can conjure is this echo
Screaming into an abyss  
Ruling your body by paranoia  
Keeping feelings deep  
But emotions high  
Like dropping a stone  
Into the open sea  
Never to be seen again
Yet still heavy  
 
But this time it was not a stone  
But your body weighed
Down by invisible thoughts
Sunken in your mind  
Your body not obeying commands
Your open eyes looking past  
 this ever slowly  
Creeping haunting time  
Of compete stillness  
 
And perhaps utter darkness  
In all of this that is the most dreadful part
For me to know  
That you’re a blindfolded captive  
Buried in your own body  
Drowning in the encompassing reverberation  
Of your unseeing eye  
 
I’d like to think that maybe  
The universe isn’t so cruel  
And that it has arranged for your brain
To engage and create pathways  
Of your mind to display  
Vividly and beautifully  
And that in your imagination you can  
Explore the galaxies  
That you’ve always heard the hum of  
And when you are asleep  
You wander to places you’ve always wondered about  
That you dive deep into the parts of you that you were always afraid of
But you’re not as scared because now there’s a guide and a light  
And when you resurface I hope you hear  
Your favorite edgy music and laughter  
I left a cigarette on your nightstand  
My friend  
I hope that your sanity is sunken deep into mystery’s  
But mostly I hope that your thoughts resurface