The Ugly Beauty that Once Was

Long live the life
Long and sharp is the knife
Lies always cut deep
But the truth usually cuts deeper
The choice to leave her or keep her
In the end I got neither
Honest to me
The best I ever had honestly
But also the worst disrespectfully 
constant combat in close quarters
Now standing in rooms with disloyal supporters
No need for the Oscar’s; just give us the awards
Sacrificed the joy for the peace rewards
Winning in losing
The outcome of choosing
Still holding on with invisible thread
Memories forever causing the disease to spread
Had to take a chance for that light at the tunnel ahead
It’s hunger I can’t tame no matter how much I’m feed
Crazy thing is I know where you’ll see
Insane I put it there where i know you’ll be
long as I live
Live as long as I love
The ugly beauty that once was