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To my best friend
Why are you standing in a room with me?
Why are you standing in a room with me and still I‘m feeling alone
You’d rather be far away, staring down in your phone
I hope you know that I’m slowly losing hope
The same jokes that you used to laugh at are now boring and old
I look at you, you look away what the hell is wrong
I want to help you but you won’t let me through
I‘m feeling trapped in my mind cause your space is empty
Why is there a void? Maybe
Maybe it’s the way that we are talking
It’s different from the way we used to talk.
Yes I want to be involved
Yet you’re pushing me away, losing all my grip, I’m giving up
I’m losing faith you know
Maybe I‘m wrong
Maybe you‘re moving on
But I feel like it’s unfair
That you’re leaving me here
In the dark.
I don’t want to lose you
And you know that
You know that I can’t
Still you’re pretending you don’t care
I know you have some problems
so why don’t you share?
Is this unfair?
Talk to me
I would listen
You know I would listen
If you‘d only talk to me
I love you as a friend really
Maybe this is not what you’re looking for
But there’s nothing else I can be there for
Yes, I’m sorry really
Yes I have some problems too
I’ve been fucked up just like you
Laying awake in bed too
Because I’ve been scared to lose
Scared to lose the only one I love in this world
These are just words
I’m sorry I can’t put much more sense in them lately
Why are you standing in a room with me and still I‘m feeling alone
You’d rather be far away, staring down in your phone
I hope you know that I’m slowly losing hope
The same jokes that you used to laugh at are now boring and old
I look at you, you look away what the hell is wrong
I want to help you but you won’t let me through
I‘m feeling trapped in my mind cause your space is empty
Why is there a void? Maybe
Maybe it’s the way that we are talking
It’s different from the way we used to talk.
Yes I want to be involved
Yet you’re pushing me away, losing all my grip, I’m giving up
I’m losing faith you know
Maybe I‘m wrong
Maybe you‘re moving on
But I feel like it’s unfair
That you’re leaving me here
In the dark.
I don’t want to lose you
And you know that
You know that I can’t
Still you’re pretending you don’t care
I know you have some problems
so why don’t you share?
Is this unfair?
Talk to me
I would listen
You know I would listen
If you‘d only talk to me
I love you as a friend really
Maybe this is not what you’re looking for
But there’s nothing else I can be there for
Yes, I’m sorry really
Yes I have some problems too
I’ve been fucked up just like you
Laying awake in bed too
Because I’ve been scared to lose
Scared to lose the only one I love in this world
These are just words
I’m sorry I can’t put much more sense in them lately
Published 16th Mar 2023
Author's Note
I wrote this one almost a year ago. But it’s still so present in my head, still so little has changed that I decided to publish it anyways. I guess I’m just scared of changes, scared of losing a beloved friend to the darkness of the real world. Sometimes I wake up and want to be a child again. Way before life started to get serious.
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16th Mar 2023 9:40pm
i don’t really know what to say, what to say that could possibly help you. what i know for sure is that you can’t save everyone, no matter how bad you want to be able to… sometimes, everything seems to fall down and you’re going down with it because you held up everyone and everything too long. i know you’re strong, you’re super strong, but nobody’s able to hold it up that long. sometimes, we need change in order to survive. sometimes it’s good, sometimes you feel alone and helpless - but remember: it serves a reason, you’re going to grow and get even stronger, even though it hurts like hell right now.
and remember the following as well:
i’ll be here for you, in every step and every minute of your way, i’ll be right here. you’re not alone <33
and remember the following as well:
i’ll be here for you, in every step and every minute of your way, i’ll be right here. you’re not alone <33
