Bad decisions at 55

It wasn't up to you  
it was up to me  
turns out there was A LOT of falling  
drank too much  
smoked too much  
really over did it on the folly  
still here I am  
full of ego and piss  
the cracks are deeper  
my bruises lie in wait  
not as quick to calamity  
at least that's what I tell myself  
though I can still throw my lot in with the wineos  
so go ahead twist that top or pull the cork  
let's get on with it  
i’ll pay for it tomorrow