Rains

Sunken stone sun; waiting impatient
I've supposedly won; fading lenient
I can't stay home; I don't feel safe
My mind alone; falling base
I should be happy; but I hate it all
Basic entropy; exasperated crawl
Tear-splitting pain; lying to leave
Personality maim; my joy bereave

When can I go away
I won't come back another day
Feeling lost, sliding astray
Long-term cost of mental decay

Cracking teeth; fractured eyes
Lying least; maturity flies
Falling fast; dying quick
Forgetting past; ties that stick

I don't deserve intimacy; I'm flashing self-co-dependency
I struggle not to hit myself; Hanging by a thread of health
I cry to pass immovable time; My mind commits the bashful crime
I would like to leave behind; Memories of placation-like blind