Repeated

Mentally stuck in previous pain
Driving incongruous lies insane
Falling internally to divine eyes
Fading for little common lies

I'm afraid of losing you
I hide in my emotional pew
I cannot hide my discontent
I'll pretend to be hell-bent

I am tired of the tension
I am scared to barely mention
I'll avoid all eye contact
I pretend conflict won't be intact

Am I home
Am I safe
Will I hide
In your knife

Am I dead
Am I real
Will I end
Hopeless life