A Rant? A Thought on pain

sometimes the only way to feel alive is pain  
better than living under the servitude of our own wretched minds  
better than watching the vermin infest and breed useless samaritans  
most people adore pain whether they realize it or not.  
   
the girl who denies and obsesses over her cheating boyfriend  
the man who fucks cheap whores in order to avoid his baby girl  
the mother whos addicted to crack while turning tricks neglecting  her children  
the innocent child who torments others for a feeling of power in place of love    
   
emotional trauma    
physical abuse  
self mutilation  
   
i wonder what your poison is..  
the silver tongued serpent the eloquent master of manipulation  
or perhaps your a slave to a dictators oppressive beatings  
maybe simply the child who was never loved enough and finds the adrenalin in a blade of crimson tears  
possibly the little attention whore who was always daddy's favorite    
   
are you just a kinky bitch  
do you receive pleasure vicariously through anthers agony?  
i mean, not that i blame you  
sometimes you just have to humiliate a fucking parasitic swine  
what better way to free pent up aggression than through orgasm  
   
i bet your the kind that is loaded with self conspiracies    
that mother fuckers been stalking you huh?  
it cant just be a coincidence he saw you at your dealers and the valero in the same day...  
its all good though right?  
hes just a mere pawn inside legend of a new serial killer  
i know your aware they're all fuckin out to get you...  
no, yea, wait..its all good  
no one will find the decapitated mutilated bodys in the woods behind your house..  
   
that's a mind fuck right there aint it?  
a fool brain washing his self...    
just anther kind of self mutilation..  
my favorite kind  
the mental kind  
   
are you ignorant and compulsive?  
go to the party with all the thrill seekers for something rebellious  
have a few to many shots then spike your own damn self    
get so trashed nothing has a purpose  
paralyze the voice tempting you to act on impulse  
escape the turmoils of your responsibility  
   
point is, everyone conforms to their own form of pain  
some accept it others dont  
people can thrive engulfed in it  
and people can dig themselves a pretty little grave  
   
i find it quite amusing to observe to chaos people inflict upon themselves  
Sadomasochists and victims alike  
ive often found the most vindictive little bitches to be the most passionate   
maybe i do have some sick personality disorder  
or maybe you just have a sheltered mind  
pain is simply one of the required experiences one must go through in life  
whether yours is intentional or unintentional    
 
im just a mere silhouette of a woman  
in need of a serenity of feeling alive with pleasure through pain  
curious of the demons controlling anothers mind
and bored enough to inflict some pain..