Sorya/Seraphyna’s journal XYZAB

truth....
what an interesting concept
for an idea that is so highly subjective

what is the real truth? I dont know what i trust, yet. what is the meaning of the tenefactorum. Is what we did more humane? or was there another reason, the elimination of most crime seemed to make the people very happy. the work we did, no one questioned it after that.

and what of the oath, why the odd wording? "from this day until the last?" wouldn't it be more accurate to say "from this day until my last?"

I can understand why others would choose the other option, but I do not agree. I honestly do believe that it is possible to have the best of both worlds. It has to be possible for The People and the Tenefactorum to coexist without.... even now I can't complete the sentence, even now, I detest the thing, and yet I still can't express it. something about the whole thing just seems... wrong. perhaps its the fact that I must still remember Agatha and what happened that day. Was her death humane?

What of those who gave us shelter along the way? What became of them? I never could find them, did they suffer the dark fire too? Did they send a direct team or a cleanup crew?

A direct team would have killed them, would have made a clean kill and then called their fire.

A cleanup crew is supposed to do the same, but in recent years they've been caught just collectively calling fire to cleanse a space of everything, including the people.

Which did they get?

We were trained that our gifts, such as they are, were to protect the pact, but if that is true? Why the hell did we even need the pact and what are they for if not to protect the pact?

If banishment is an illusion, how far does that extend? Can I reach the fire? Is the path still there? The sight? My memory seems pretty much the same. What has changed.  What happens if I try and I’m wrong? Then again, what if I'm right? Can I allow myself to feel, knowing that? I don't know that I could go back to not feeling again.