Implore (for the mother protect me comp)

there's a shadowed hate inside of me
it was born and breed from misery
i just don't understand how you cannot see
that the pain i carry is some sort of mystery

i understand you struggle with addiction
but its time you recognize our unresolved afflictions
why cant you love me as well as you can refill your prescription?
i guess ignorance is all you need to cause me infliction

you only talk to me when im about to get high
making small talk but we both know they're all lies
would you even notice if i were to just fucking die?
denial is is your specialty i doubt you'd even cry

do you remember when you dated that guy Robert?
and how you came home one day to see the rip in my skirt...
you called me a lieing whore for claiming he was a pervert
never will you understand the betrayal i felt or how much that hurt

sometimes my emotions feel as fragile as a child
how dare you always blame me for shit and be so reviled?!
i remember the day we returned from the c.p.s. and you smiled...
promising something better but we all knew home was defiled

you will never be the "proper" mother i always craved for
now that im an adult i don't need you anymore
i still wish you would hug me or our relationship would magically restore
i love you with all my heart mom, please don't just leave me forever ignored