hypnotized

And so i lay
In my bed alone
The place my demons
Now Call their home

Suffacating in the light
I'm doing all i can
Hypnotized by the blades
On the ceilling fan

All i use to live for
Was a love that wasn't there
The bottles broken on the floor
And your god never cared

Voices in my head
Such a familiar Sound
Alone I'm outnumbered
In my mind i drown

I fear no judgement nor hell
I've known much better days
throw me in my padded cell
And throw the key away

The day i hold my breath just to save another
Will be the day we both forgive each other
The day i have nothing left to get over
Will be the day that i die sober

So I've been up all night
Tossing and turning
Kicking and squirming
Waiting for my door to open
Hoping that it has not broken