FROM THE HURT... PT - 2

I see you now like a peacock,
Your light for all to see;
I can't help but think you are needy
Of someone more complete than me.

I need to remove the memories
Of all I had planned in my head;
I need to allow you to shine
Without my burden of lead.

I know what we have can't be mended,
Yet I know what we have is true;
My ego protects, builds defences,
And I know I'm not worthy of you.

So I'm blocking your heart from my thoughts,
I just need to drift for a while.
I don't want to grow anymore right now;
I just need to regain my smile.

You talk about bonds and dimensions,
But this life's about money and work.
I know I have been dismissive
But it's how I deal with my hurt.

I won't hold you back on your journey,
I won't interject on your dreams,
But the thought of you with another
Sends a heart pain that fills me with screams.

I imagine you with such attention
For you've nothing to hold you back;
My ego can only judge you
On how my own brain would react.

So I'm stuck holding on, I'm stuck letting go,
You can't hold me up any longer,
But thankyou for your unconditional love;
Inside I know you are stronger.

I won't say I love you and beg,
I won't plead, won't fall to my knees.
I have chosen this level where ego dictates
The life that I should lead.

Goodbye my forever friend,
I secretly hope not forever,
You will always be the sun that shines
But you shine more when we're not together.

FROM THE HEART...

Two lovers left in limbo,
Yet such love lies in-between;
If only they could forge the path
That reaches both their dreams.