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A deeper kind of sad
Sometimes I need to take a long look in the mirror and remember what I am.
I can smile at myself, I can at anyone else.
I can forget but it hits me harder each time I remember.
The words used to describe me don’t fully define me.
Depressed and suicidal are two words that can’t capture the whole story.
I would say I am deeply sad.
In the way that when I'm happy I still am sad and when I'm glad I still don’t want to live.
I’m tired when I’m fully rested, I'm weighed down by myself.
like a scar, it can fade, almost until you can’t see it., but it will always be a part of me.
Unlike this metaphorical scar on my soul, nothing happened to me.
I was born regretting.
I live every day wondering if it's worth it when I'm not supposed to exist, the choice between committing or committing.
I can smile at myself, I can at anyone else.
I can forget but it hits me harder each time I remember.
The words used to describe me don’t fully define me.
Depressed and suicidal are two words that can’t capture the whole story.
I would say I am deeply sad.
In the way that when I'm happy I still am sad and when I'm glad I still don’t want to live.
I’m tired when I’m fully rested, I'm weighed down by myself.
like a scar, it can fade, almost until you can’t see it., but it will always be a part of me.
Unlike this metaphorical scar on my soul, nothing happened to me.
I was born regretting.
I live every day wondering if it's worth it when I'm not supposed to exist, the choice between committing or committing.
Published 5th Dec 2022
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5th Dec 2022 11:14am
Dear C,
You raise a few points or considered myself. I think your poem reasons out and highlights very real ideas.
“In the way that when I'm happy I still am sad and when I'm glad I still don’t want to live.”
and
“I’m tired when I’m fully rested, I'm weighed down by myself.”
You’ve captured those opposites perfectly. Very relatable write. H🌷
You raise a few points or considered myself. I think your poem reasons out and highlights very real ideas.
“In the way that when I'm happy I still am sad and when I'm glad I still don’t want to live.”
and
“I’m tired when I’m fully rested, I'm weighed down by myself.”
You’ve captured those opposites perfectly. Very relatable write. H🌷
22nd Dec 2022 8:02am
