Mentally Exhausted

Ive been mentally exhausted my heart is getting heavy
Ive been blowing hella smoke tryna keep my mind steady
Im close to the edge
And im trying not to loose it
Using drugs for novacaine
Cause lately ive been going through it
This new generation it Aint nothing like before
Nowadays all the respect and loyalty went out the door
Everyday I feel my spirit caught inside a war
Ive been fighting with these demons tryna even out the score
Certain situations either make you or they break you
Learn from every loss and if you win remain grateful
I keep my circle small cause fake friends will try nd snake you
Smile in your face knowing deep inside they hate you
Im staring out the window
While I'm bumping instrumentals
Thinking bout my life tryna figure out my next move
So understand this you gotta find the beauty in the mess
Whats the point in making dollars if you got no common sense