Better without

it felt so wrong
it felt so right
i knew it wasnt meant to be
how could you do this to me
i thought you loved me
but i see you dont care
i thought you were like him
i thought you were right
but now i can see you were so wrong
just like i was
but you see...im not picky..
to me you are just a stand in for him
for all that he was to me
i know you couldnt come close
but i thought you might work
of course everything i want goes wrong
i felt that he was perfect
that he was the one
the one that everyone talks about
my other half
but he couldnt deal with it anymore
with any of the hatred
or the pain
the misery that you caused him
i know about what happened to him
i know about the fights
and the bruises
i know about eveything
but all i could do..
all i could do was sit back and watch
it was like a bullet proof glass
planted all around me
my own private world
filled to the top with pain
no matter how hard i try
to end it all
but you see
all it did was make me stronger
and make me stand up for myself
you helped me realize
that im so much better than you
that i dont need anyone to be me
i dont need anyone at all
im perfect on my own
by myself
being alone isnt a bad thing
it gives me so much time to think
a lot of people these days forget what thinking is
everyone is waiting for someone though
someone who will be there for them
but why?
we have ourselves
i wont betray myself
i wont break my own heart