On a Trip to the Stars

On a trip to the stars
I have not yet made it very far
On my way up with a damaged support system and blocked channels of communication

//Zero passengers//

Upon lift-off
An error message reads:
"Too much cargo, too much history"
I would not be myself without those memories

//Dense emotional baggage//

But they're keeping me from excelling
Unable to venture towards my intended destination
Stationed, fearful, stagnant
Why am I ok with being complacent?

//Disabled navigation system//

This is my journey, and my journey alone
Positive self-talk, breaking patterns
Solar panels feeding light to my heart
Please, heal my dark, broken soul

//Introspective traveler//

Seeking out moments in which I will look good
Not moments of learning, teaching
Self-righteous fuel
For a well-oiled machine

//Egoistic scavenger//

Although rare and fleeting
Repairs will be completed
There is a reason I have not made it very far
On this trip to see the stars

//Opportunities awaiting//