Why Didn't I Go

I prescribed you insecurities; Without my mental immaturities
I gave you my thoughts; Assuming we could be argonauts
I created your voice in my head; But I completely had misread
For we barely ever spoke; Still I thought my words could evoke

Learned long ago; Infatuation glow
Free from thought assumed lies; You reacted with your eyes
Right way out; Frightened doubt
Wish I never said anything; My thoughts needed abandoning

I assigned my impossible dreams; Never thinking them for extremes
Pretending you were colts-foot; I never asked for your input
I know I made it all unfair; Thinking it was just to simply compare
I made you question friendships; With my bullshit emotion eclipse

Learned long ago; Infatuation glow
Free from thought assumed lies; You reacted with your eyes
Right way out; Frightened doubt
Wish I never said anything; My thoughts needed abandoning

I could have learned to be
Someone worth being a friend to me
Now I’m vacant, from my lacking
I’m clairvoyant memory unpacking
But self-centered choices
Overtake logical voices
Of recognizing independence
By assigning transcendence

Learned long ago; Infatuation glow
Free from thought assumed lies; You reacted with your eyes
Right way out; Frightened doubt
Wish I never said anything; My thoughts needed abandoning