The aftermath

Bridled confessions of a new reality
Cleansing for the future
Left to my own devices, plagued by modern mannerisms
No peace only troubled dimensions
Is there no love on this lev3l
I saw the red flags my heart didn’t want to listen
this place we find the missing
I sat under that tree praying for the ground to open
you through me out like I was nothing
my emotions clouded my instincts
Just another toy till she comes around
its all been a game you play with your enemies
real life call of duty
in this game youth is the winner
He left me she was younger
First love power
I couldn’t replace her
I wasn’t the better lover
To old for this lifetime
He promised forever
Only lost dreams and gentle disbeliefs
Lost in human consumption,
A different type of torment
Spirituality threatened
now darkness my only friend
This pain is on another level
My other half is the devil
Confused by the levels of love my heart feels for him
Looking for resolution when there is none to give
Fairy tails only made for children
Guess im an adult and adults get fucked
Drowning in misguided affections
Desperate need for attention
Only to reconsider
Yet replaced by another
If this is reality I want a refund