RUNAWAY TRAIN    (3-25-2000, 3:00-4:00am, Galveston Island, Texas)

     
another long day        
left me extra        
tired tonight        
now three a m        
with sleep so far        
still        
nowhere in sight      
to be found      
despite the fact        
my runaway mind        
is still on track        
but its rushing wheels        
are not yet        
slowing down      
for its worn out      
brakes      
showed signs      
of failing      
nearly two hours        
back ago     
when the conductor        
first lost        
all mechanical      
and physical control        
now something        
in me        
will not let go        
to surrender at last        
into the mindless        
peaceful flow        
of sleeps        
still presently        
resistant pardon        
for apparently        
there must be        
a few angry        
stowaway passengers        
still hiding        
subconsciously        
on board tonight        
repressed ghosts        
that want        
to fight        
somatic inhibitions        
like phantom        
nocturnal emissions        
that sometimes        
sneak up        
by surprise        
now seem to have        
arisen here again        
tonight        
up from some        
long forgotten        
nocturnal        
inner grave        
demanding my        
attention        
for their present        
momentary liberation        
from the dark        
entangled depths        
of their subconscious        
prison        
insisting on their        
forced re entry        
into hypnogogic recognition        
through my dreams        
upon  onto        
these flimsy        
seemingly        
endless tracks        
that lead up        
from the obscure        
boundless        
inner darkness s depths     
of my subconscious        
shadow mind        
with my bio    
circadian rhythms        
all completely    
out of whack        
i lie here now        
upon my restless        
sleep deprived back        
held hostage        
far away from        
sleeps evasive        
sweet release    
leaving me        
feeling helpless now    
to do anything    
more about it    
here on      
this        
reckless        
runaway train        
speeding wildly away        
on through        
this rapidly withering        
night        
still sleeplessly        
off into        
tomorrows        
equally mysterious        
now much too        
rapidly      
fast approaching        
just    
as elusive  
further ongoing  
continuous unfoldings  
uncertain  
and presently  
still not manifested  
outcomes  
and any other
new becomings    
both still  
as yet  
unborn     
unseen
unknown