A dark hell

Death to my self with no regrets,the kill joy with no reason no right, no more energy left to fight.left with simply the pain under the pride and the happiness is now just to hard to find,drowning in sorrowful hell,to not fear death to anticipate the day for it to move closer no fear you don't believe me you don't think I'll do it hand me the gun I blow my brains out with a twisted smile and a laugh,when it's over I'll just giggle and I fucked up or just honest