Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (x9 Senryu Acrostic)

Rejection

Rejection began
Educationally sub'
Just after Holland

Easy speaking Dutch
Couldn't cope with English words
Timid, and quite shy

In fear of my dad
Often hit, and shouted at
No sibling support

Sensitive

Sensitive, seen weak
Easy to bully, and smack
No escape from home

Shut up i was told
I did, for a year, went mute
Talk ceased, to my dad

I feel critics words
Vulnerable to coldness
Empathy engulfs

Dysphoria

Dysphoria bleeds
Youth's soon forgotten journey
Sadness prevails time

Perhaps i could be
Happy at being myself
Outward, someone else

Reality wins
I am a girl, not thus born
Arrived late at sixty

by Jemia