Heart to Heart

      
     
     
    sometimes I'd ask why? why must you do the things you do? .... the "games"....could be anything from how you feel you'll be perceived by the public eye, expectations are high, personal reasons internalized....      
     
     
   projected perceptions from family and friends....a list among lists....I think about this episode of black mirror called nosedive minus the bad ending; the story of a lot of your lives....      
     
     
honestly, I sympathize; despite the bitter ice cold "queens" that sit on a pedestal dangerously high.... or the one's who've gone terribly bad with hate in their eyes....      
     
     
I've been raised up right; despite short comings, mistakes, and just one's mentality towards overall life;      
     
     
I have 3 siblings; one an older sister that while growing up gave me unnecessary difficult times; first hand experience with good and terrible unavoidable times....that was unacceptable; though still love her to life; so when I see others act a way-she comes to mind....      
     
     
there's nothing like a woman with her climate just right; opened enough to recognize that it's not all about her and her life.... validation more or less goes both ways;      
     
 
 men aren't just "machines", who are unfazed....