Testament

I've pressed blades against my skin
To emphasize what i lack within
How could you hate me so?
I am your kin  
 
Your approval is all i needed
Something less bitter and conseded
Than disapproving grunts
I pleaded  
 
Don't care for me out of a sense of duty
I want you to love me truly
Godammit!
YOUR blood runs through me  
 
Ive run my soul to catastrophy  
You've nurtured my apathy
Dear dad
Smile happily  
 
At my fucking funeral