Nicotine Drenched

I feel it in my bones.
 I hear it in my voice.
I see it in my face.
I taste it in my mouth.

“Do I make it a simple ending or do I remain?”
I’m gone, I feel wrecked.
I’m lost, I feel stretched out past my limits.
Death weighs heavy on my brain.
My soul is beyond repair.

MY mind has begun to fade.
I can no longer differentiate
 night and day, it’s all thrown away into a blur, A hazy abyss.
I’ve crucified myself.

My Hands are shaking.
My soul is breaking.
My Face goes numb.
Everything collapses into one.
I can’t find the air I used to breathe.
Nothing has healed, and it’s all too much.