Reluctant to trust again

 
I am human.
Thats a fact.

If I show too much emotion I am attacked,
with words of judgment.
Leaving me questioning their commitment.

Sending me into a cyclone of doubt.
Constantly dealing with the ups and downs.

Alone I face my battles because I cant trust anyone to stand by me.
I once trusted someone reluctantly.

But he broke my heart.
Forcing me to restart,
and face these battles alone.
Lately I don’t even know why I have a phone.

The call list is empty and messages unread.
Sometimes I wonder if they’d miss me when I’m dead.