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“You’re worth saving.  
And nothing worth saving is beyond saving.  
I would never give up on you.”
“They all do eventually. You will too.”
“Let me prove to you that I am different.”
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I had sewn forever and paid the price.
There was so much of myself to sacrifice.
I lost the same battle I had never won
Now every wound I spent on you is undone
Bleeding again, bleeding every single one,
And I cannot breathe; anymore
That is the price of such a war.
 
I had broken my own heart to prove
That what I felt was something…
That what I felt was love
And it meant nothing.
I have cut myself into pieces just to show
That I would never let you go—
So you had to leave...
And you are all that I see in my own eyes
And now as I grieve
You offer me no replies.
 
Nothing worth saving…is beyond saving…
And all the mistakes that we were making
Could be mended if you’d just stop cutting me
With your silence, and your need to be free
Of my need for you and your voice…
And I have made my choice…
I will wait forever to save you
I will wait forever to save you.
 
It feels like my skin is aflame,
And the world echoes your name
Setting fire to me on the inside:
This Hell that you provide
With your silence to my heartbeat,
It feels like I am incomplete—
Like I am half of what I could be
Without you here to torment me
With all of your beauty.
 
My heart is broken, and I see you so clear
As if you’re standing here.
As if you never went away
As if you might say
That you forgive me for pushing you…pushing you away.
 
© 2021 Marten Hoyle