i want (aching and longing)

aching and longing
for you, only you

i want my hands in your hair
the hair you always keep so
neatly
tied
up

i want you to hold me again
the way you did that one time
that left me
so Very
uncertain

i want to call you all those gross pet names
that we always joke about but
i want
it to
be real

i want you to tell me things
anything that is or was important to you
words you
dont tell
anyone else

i want to go on dates
and adventures that we will remember later in life
places with
memories
that cannot
be forgotten

i want to give you gifts
things i know you'd like
thrifted tops
teddy bears
thoughtful notes

i want this to be real
more than anything else
not a
figment
of my
wild imagination