I want to "live"

My life has no sense,    
My life has no worth.  
I don't do anything,    
Besides eating, sleeping, suffering,  
Again and again!    
    
I want to live!    
I want to experience something,    
No matter if it's good or bad.    
I want to be able to say "I love my life,    
It has a sense and I don't want it to end"    
I want to live!    
   
Even my daydreams are boring,    
Cause I've never learnt how to live,    
I only know how to survive,    
The boring life,    
That tortues me every day!    
   
I would prefer feeling pain of bad experiences,    
Over feeling pain of never experiencing anything at all.    
I would prefer feeling pain of lost love,    
Over feeling pain of never having mutual love at all.    
I would prefer feeling pain of cheating,    
Over feeling pain of never having sex at all.
I would prefer feeling pain of falling, Over feeling pain of having nothing to fall from.    
   
Every time I want to stand up,    
My chains are keeping me down.    
But if nothing will change    
I will just end it all...