Half-Hearted

Half of my heart said put the bottle down
but you had the other half
And you constantly reminded me that I wasn't good enough
That the only thing I would ever be good at  
was letting others down
My biggest mistake through it all
was that I actually believed you
See I've worn so many masks over the years to hide the real me
The skeletons you've hid in my closet should catch you a charge
for murder in the first degree
But if there's one thing you took from me
that I wish I could get back
It's time
Like the time I spent staring into the bottom of an empty glass
Hoping my next shot would come with a bullet and be my last
Or the time I was so out of my mind that you convinced me to get into a screaming match
with someone I love
Over a bottle of water
Or all those time I tucked Lily into bed
Only to wake up the next morning not remembering how I made it from one room to the next
All while looking for my phone to see who I text
You were EVIL
You had half of my heart  
and I thought you'd take care of me
But you set it on fire
Burned me in the third degree
It's a long list of things you've done wrong to me
And I spent so many sleepless nights trying to convince myself  
that what you were doing was getting me by
Well it's time I take the other half of my heart back
It's time I stop being afraid to look into the mirror
for fear that you might be looking back at me
I'd like to thank you for what you've put me through
For without it I wouldn't have had the strength to stand up to you
So take this as my formal goodbye
It's officially over between you and I