Mom Dont Ask

 
What do you say to ah Mother
who was neva there
Do you hug her,do you kiss her
And tell her you still care
What can i say to ah Mother
who will use mistakes as her truths
....Incarcerated,Drungs....
What's the "FUCKING"use

What can i say to ah Mother
who said when i was 5
I didn't even want kid's i was hoping you would..DIE..
What can i say to this stranger
who tried to slip within the cracks
going back to when i was 12
and all you did was get.HIGH..and lay on your *FUCKING*back
 
What do you say to ah Mother
who thinks the tears i write are jokes
Boi if i wasn't christian
I'd slit her *FUCKING* throat
Excuse my verbal langauge,and trade the child abuse
all the misery and pain ,this woman put me threw
How can i began to *LOVE* you
when you were never there
Cause when you were all i got were *HATE U's*
And i wish she wasn't here

What to say to ah Mother
who comes back after 17yrs
Trying to play * MOMMY*
well *BYTCH* Im not that dear..
You see i can remember all the things you tried to hide
like the time when i was 6
you sold me to get high

I even remember when i was taken from your care
and i remember you came back sayim im*SOBER*
come let *MOMMY* play in your hair
A soft hug and kiss,sittin here with mommy
Loving her even tho she didn't love me
You stroke my hair and tell me
MOMMY really LOVES you
When all the while your bitter
And my haircut was you sayin see what you made mommy do

So i hope you can forgive me,
cause i dont *FORGIVE* you
So i guess i can tell a *MOTHER*

I DONT FUCKING * LOVE YOU*