My purity is extinct

Above the golden beaches,  
Right on the seventh floor
Spacious with high ceilings  
Filled with Modern decor  
 
I was 15 and pretty  
A misfit  
Man, it's such a pity!  
It's where I first ever got lit.  
 
Amongst the Smokey cloud,  
it felt like a heavenly place.  
I just wished Bailey were allowed  
To join me in outta space.  
 
The only bags i had packed  
Sat under my eyes, so heavy  
Leaving no room to pack with me..  
My high school sweetheart..  
So without even flinching,  
I left him down on earth.  
 
That seventh floor became my rocket  
I soared so high at such a fast pace  
I managed to vanish past the clouds  
Without even leaving a trace.  
 
I take a look around me to find:  
 
Blank expressions  
Poisoned by their  
Untold confessions  
Protected by their  
Memory suppression  
Shadows gather amongst the frost  
Colder than the ice I smoked  
And darker than pipe resin  
The evil here overpowered,  
Cause it fed off the depression.  
Blazing up a constant session  
To then get off on such aggression  
Another heart turned to stone  
Another terrifying lesson  
I couldn't be left alone  
In this world I was always 'Less Than'  
 
I was in a black hole and I was trapped.  
 
The only way out , was to free fall  
All or nothing.  
So I got even higher...  
Till' I felt nothing -at all.  
 
I had fallen into his web,  
He spun it all too well.  
Live streamed on The Dark Web  
Unaware and under his spell.  
 
He was evil and cruel  
I was a young, naive fool.  
 
How could I leave my groom?  
Just to go and be groomed!  
He was clever with his crime  
And got closer over time.  
 
I gravitated towards his pull  
In total oblivion..  
I was isolated,  
He was affiliated,  
I was penetrated  
Heavily medicated.  
I am forever contaminated!  
 
Still to this day,  
Since being back on earth  
I search far and long  
For my youth and my self worth.  
 
He passed from natural causes  
Why not by my dirty hands?  
Somehow he was protected  
Someone has covered his plans.  
I wasn't the only one he had molested.  
But I was the one he didn't want to leave  
Now i'm left with a brain -so infested!  
Like I Can't safely bring back up -  
That trauma I've digested.  
Without running back to that same evil substance he once suggested.  
 
It's the little things that bother me most,  
They pop in my head every now and then.  
 
You were grooming me from the start!  
Had me think you were my only friend.  
"68 years old, still a child at heart."  
Feeling misunderstood  
Could finally come to an end.  
 
"So why go back to school?" you'd say  
"When they all think you are a whore."  
"Why the need to get clothes from dads?"  
"When I'll just buy you a whole store. "  
 
"They will send you away" - you'd cry  
"Back to the mental ward!"  
... "So, why don't you just stay?"  
"I promise you won't get bored."  
 
......  
 
 
I'm sick of these rock spiders ruling the world.  
My purity is extinct.  
 
Written By Megan.