So alone

So i realize that emotionally
we were both wounded by the blows
of losing our son
yet you shut down locked me out
so i couldn't get in or even help
yet you left me alone
to struggle with the pain i faced
allowed me not to feel good enough
cause i felt i had to be corrupted inside
as i cried day in and out
hoping you open up and talk to me
reveal the pain you held inside
yet you didn't and i continuously cried
how dare you say you didn't want to talk about it
say you cared about me
even though i knew you would've been okay if the baby lived
I would have not
never felt so alone in love before
For some odd reason I kept trying with you
hoping you would speak about what we went through
Yet after a while I wrote us off all together
I was walking around pretending like I still loved you
after you couldn't open up to me
the love i had for you started to fade
i eventually felt like you had become selfish
there could no longer be anything left in my heart for the relationship we had
I didnt want to make you talk
but you left me alone suffer the pain of losing my son
without having many people to talk to