Wishful Thinking

Heart exposed and I know that I’m in trouble,
You tear my world down, I’m stuck in all the rubble.
I act calm, I act like nothing is wrong,
and you’re oblivious to the fact that I’ve been hurting all along.

I mean it’s nothing,
Really baby it’s nothing.  I swear.
I just want you to understand me or something…and care.
Shit, wishful thinking never fixed our damn problems,
But I’m scared that talking it out would cause more drama rather than solve them.

And so I’d rather stay silent than speak up and cause another fight,
And keep praying that one day you’ll start to treat me right.
And see me for more than someone who is smart,
I want you to feel my soul.
I want you to have my heart.

-J.R.