Jaded tears and a heart of sapphire

My heart used to beat for those who killed it
So I lost all of my desire
To pick up the old building kit
And rule over my rightful empire
My garden's completely filled with shit
And shadows that conspire
But I notice a willow that weeps when hit
And it makes me wonder why I never tire
Of wanting my neck to be split
Even when my heart is on fire
So I pick up the crown that barely fits
And I hear the tree calling me sire
With a confidence that's counterfeit
I try my best to inspire
I see how the world never cared for it
So I sow my seeds of sapphire
And water them with the tears I always felt
Hanging on my lashes like tripwire
Now my heart beats for those who deserve it
And like the saplings of my love, I keep getting higher