lost

ppl probly call me evil  
they think im deceitful, no- not before..  
had loyalty so stacked in abundance  
i found it hard to believe that i could ever leave you  
n there'd be no sequel?  
but i guess thats just how life goes  
id swear our shit was as magical as snow globes  
while she puts she wants magic, not to just settle on her fb post  
find myself always asking why i find myself here  
looking again into another set of dead eyes,
wondering why they always seem to appear  
thats just how i seem to find myself year after year
with another thatll inevitably hurt me, probably through some "misundserstanding"  
so sick of this mess, dealing with the stress its too much for my neck  
feel like ive got a whole bolder strapped to my back  
and as if that wasnt enough it feels like something else weighing me down on top of that. as if someones got ropes attached that they keep pullin at.  
despicible people just trying to taunt me so exhausting.  
but srsly bro, life is so weird..  
never ever thought in a million years id finally get here?!  
having my very freedom scrutinized because im online and challenge someones lies. the spider spins its weave, so loosely tied, it shouldnt take a mastermind to see the signs.  
but still, unfair as fuck. you people and that situation,  
all i feel is disgust.  
 
but anyway,  
irrumabo vitae  
never felt like i belonged anyway,-  
maybe in this place, i'll feel safe?  
 
and i guess yall can just keep wondering  
where im talking about.. its a secret.  
that only 7 know about.  
so good luck finding oot.  
 
while im sure yall will do all yall can,  
to try to make my life miserable again