Pictures for Jonathan Number Two

God it hurts.
It hurts to be near you.

You're sitting right next to me.
I yearn to touch you.
Hold you.
Put my head on your shoulder.

You're so beautiful to me.

Even though you haven't showered
In almost two weeks.

II.

I couldn't take it anymore.

Your eyes were closed.
I reached out and touched your face.
Softly kissed the corner of your mouth.

When I pulled away,
You pulled me back to you.

The whisper of your breath
On my lips.

You haven't brushed your teeth
In thirteen days.

How strange that I don't care.

I asked you what I am to you.
Told you I needed to hear it.

I already knew the answer.

Sometimes you give me your body.
But you can't give me your heart.

I have to live with this.

I have to make a decision.

Though I asked for this pain,
Why was it given to me?

Do I take what you have to offer,
Or do I distance myself from you?

I want all of you.
I don't want pieces.

Though I asked for this pain,
Why does such pain exist?

I love you.

God help me,

I love you.